November 2011
4 posts
我的心很痛，什么办。
I hate my life so much, I hope I will sleep and never wake up again.
Why doesn’t you know that what I’ve been doing is because i care I jealous. Since this is what you want I will not fucking care anymore!
So fucking disappointed, I will never forget how you hide your phone and even said me back, i will never forget. I guess I will not give in this time round, there’s nothing from stopping me for angrying at you.
October 2011
8 posts
Some random thoughts, been asking myself will I really able to pretend nothing happened and joke about it everytime? The feeling really suck max, or rather numb of it. I know it’s not your fault at all but who can I blame? Myself? No right, I can’t even show my unhappiness at all. When can all these msg things stop? I hate myself because I can’t do anything about it. I wonder why...
I know I’m the worst girlfriend you can find. If you cannot stand me anymore you have the choice to leave me.
You don’t have to ask me whether I want you to go or stay. You should know the best. But seem like you choose to walk out of me again. O well I know is im the one who ask you to go, serve me right
Fuck it la I very tired. All you know is just assuming and assuming, what’s more?
I just want you to hug me tight when I cried why can’t you do so?
If there’s nothing to hide you would have tell me months ago, you wouldnt have face your phone downward when I’m around you, you wouldnt so scare when I hold your phone longer for more than few seconds. Hello I am not stupid.
I don’t know for fuck I so faithful to you for? For fuck I take it as nothing happened for all these months? Come on can you explained all these? Should I thanks god for letting me know? For fuck seriously.
I waiting for fucking 8 month for the truth to be told, why each time all I knew is from myself?
September 2011
5 posts
I don’t even know who to turn to when I need some one to accompany me.
Been walking around aimlessy for 2hours. I really don’t know what I want. I am so tired from all these. Can’t you just stop being violent to me?
Today is the fourth time you walk away from me, and you break your promise again.
August 2011
15 posts
I feel so numb now, will all these be continued?
I just want you to stand by my side no matter what happened, hug me tight and tell me you will be with me. Is it so difficult?
But some of the things i don’t think it is difficult to know or realized it.
Not saying I’m clever or what, but sometimes I just hope that i am more stupid or rather not to think too in depth so that I won’t get to know too much of the things that I guess i not supposed to know.
June 2011
8 posts
I realized how much you mean to me and I can’t afford to lose you at all.
just one word, that one word will change everything.
Do you know that there are different types of happiness?
The type of happiness when you are with your love are those happiness full w bless that friends cannot be replaced.
And there are other type of happiness when you are with your friends are those type of happiness when we fool, joke and laugh around and that’s when love cannot be replaced.
Do you understand? I seem to be happier when...
Maybe what all your mother said was right, I guess we consider that.
I wonder when will all these come to a fullstop
I am fucking sick and tired all these already, today is the second time.
i just waiting for the day the truth to come to me
i guess i am the lousiest girlfriend in the world, i break promises, i give attitude, throw tantrum, i show stubbornness, and i don’t give my words. i hate myself so much.
March 2011
2 posts
maybe in the first place i should’t exist in this world. i hate my life so much.
one month plus already, i already tried my best to pretend like nothing happened why you still can continue? you think i don’t know who you are messaging with?
February 2011
23 posts
The type of guy that pulls you closer when you try...
Clever.
actoronstage:
A wise man once sat in the audience and cracked a joke. Everybody laughs like crazy. After a moment, he cracked the same joke again, less people laughed this time. He cracked the same joke again and again. When there was no laughter in the crowd , he smiled and said, “You can’t laugh about the same joke again and again, then why do you keep crying over the same thing over and over...
two more days, i no longer a student already. how fast i hope to graduate from the school yet i still wanna be a student for awhile more
just stay the way you are but on other hand asked to change this and that?
too afraid that the history might repeated, i need trust so much now
why can’t i just pretend like nothing happened, pretend as though i never see anything and just put on a smile? but it’s so difficult for me to do so.
guess sometime things are better to be left unknown